Im all alone and I need you now...

I've changed all my passwords so they wouldnt remind me of you. I try not to think about you by keeping myself as busy as I can possibly be. I've hidden all of your clothes and pictures.....and yet....you seem to creep into my mind through every song, street, tree, car, or computer that I come in contact with. This is the hardest thing that I've ever done. I know it will be better for me in the end....maybe better for us because if God brings us together again we will be so much stronger than before. I'm busy trying to find myself...but it seems like everywhere I try to look I only keep finding you again. Most days I can get through. Your face appears in my head, I push it to the back of my mind, and I have to keep moving through my day. But today....oh, today...today is one of those days. I woke up feeling like I should be in your bed. Like you should be driving me to school on the first day back from Spring Break....like it was every other break before this one. We'd wait until the last possible minute to get up from each others arms...drag ourselves out of bed, scramble for clothes, and drive to school. And now....well..today, that was not the case. There might be a reason I cant get you off of my mind. I'm ignoring my feelings and I know it. If you knew you would be giving me lectures on how Im the shrink and I know better than anyone else that I need to cope before I can move forward. I can just picture you asleep in bed...comfortable as ever, warm in your white tee shirt...but you're missing something aren't you? Yea, I know, me too.